J.A. Redmerski quotes

  • Just because one person's problem is less traumatic than another's doesn't mean they're required to hurt less
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Hurt #Mean #Problem

  • I think that if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one of them. I've known you for a short time, but I feel like I've known you forever.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Real #Thinking #Past

  • Heart always wins out over the mind. The heart, although reckless and suicidal and a ***** all on its own, always gets its way.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Heart #Suicidal #Winning

  • Time is cruel like life. It slows down so that you can truly experience the worst moments of it. Only if you make it through them do you get to say ‘It all happened so fast.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Moments #Slow Down #Worst

  • It’s like, you know, it doesn’t matter what you do, even if you try to replicate an experience down to every last detail, it’ll never be the way it was when it happened naturally the first time.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Trying #Firsts #Details

  • Just that dwelling and planning is bullshit, you dwell on the past, you can’t move forward. Spend too much time planning for the future and you just push yourself backwards, or you stay stagnant in the same place all your life. Live in the moment, where everything is just right, take your time and limit your bad memories and you’ll get wherever it is you’re going a lot faster and with less bumps in the road along the way.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Memories #Moving #Past

  • This goes against everything that I am, Sarai," he says and then kisses me. "No, it doesn't," I whisper and kiss him back. "It's you becoming more of who you really are.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Kissing #Kiss Me #Becoming

  • I guess sometimes the greatest memories are made in the most unlikely of places, further proof that spontaneity is more rewarding than a meticulously planned life.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Memories #Sometimes #Moments

  • Coincidence is just a safe conformist for fate.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Fate #Safe #Coincidence

  • Things always change when someone you love dies. You just can't prepare youself for those changes no matter what you do in advance. The only thing that's a certainty in always wondering who's going to be next.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Someone You Love #Matter #Next

  • I wonder if the ocean smells different on the other side of the world.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Ocean #Smell #Different

  • Yesterday I thought about why I felt the need to get up at exactly the same time as the day before and do everything I did the day before. Why? What compels any of us to do the things we do when deep down a part of us just wants to break free from it all?
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Yesterday #Needs #Want

  • Andrew..,' I shake my head, tears rolling my cheeks, '... it was always you," I whisper harshly. 'Even with Ian, I felt something was missing. I told you, that night in the field; I told you that...,' My voice trails. I smile and say, 'you are my partner in crime. I've known that for a long time.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Night #Voice #Long

  • If it makes you feel better, you can tell me to screw off if you want to refuse anything, but I hope you won't because I really want to show you how to live." - Andrew Parrish
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Feel Better #Want #Andrew

  • One more thing: don’t feel bad for not telling me that you loved me. You didn’t need to say it. I knew all along that you did.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Needs #Feels

  • ...I watch her so much that I forget it's raining at all.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Rain #Watches #Forget

  • It’s like irresistible poison: I’m mesmerized by the way it’s making me feel though it has the potential to crush my soul and I drink it down anyway.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Crush #Soul #Way

  • Well, I’m glad you didn’t drown.” His eyes warm up with his face. I smile back at him. “Yeah, that would’ve sucked.” “Definitely.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Eye #Faces #I Smile

  • I’m not a follower. I never have been. But I’ll definitely become someone I’m not for a few hours if it’ll make me blend in rather than make me a blatant eye sore and draw attention.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Eye #Attention #Followers

  • I loved Ian in the now, the way he looked at me, how he made my stomach swim, how he held my hair when I was puking my guts up after eating a bad enchilada. That’s love.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Hair #Swim #Way

  • But as I stood there dressed in a cute black pants suit and white button-up shirt and heels, I felt completely out of place. Not necessarily because of the clothes, but…I just don’t belong there. I can’t put my finger on it, but that Monday and the rest of that week when I woke up, got dressed and walked into that store, something was itching the back part of my consciousness. I couldn’t hear the actual words, but it felt like: This is your life, Camryn Bennett. This is your life.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Cute #Monday #White

  • There was no logic or any sense of purpose except that I knew I had to do something other than what I was doing, or I might not make it through this.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Purpose #Might #Logic

  • I’m starting to get used to this feeling of not caring about anything.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Caring #Feelings #Used

  • I don’t know what I’m doing, or where I’m going, but I do know that I want to do whatever it is and get there soon.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Want

  • Just remember to always be yourself and don’t be afraid to speak your mind or to dream out loud
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Dream #Being Yourself #Mind

  • I want to do everything with you
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Want

  • I know you lost your partner in crime, but...I want YOU to be MINE. Maybe WE should travel the world together, Camryn...I know I can't replace your ex--" "Andrew...it was always you.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Together #World #Want

  • I love the smell of Waffle House; it's the smell of freedom, being on the open road and knowing that ninety percent of the people eating around you are also on that road. Truck driver's, road-trippers, hangovers--those who don't live that monotonous life of society slavery.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Hangover #Smell #Knowing

  • But the heart has a mind of its own and it always gets what it wants, especially when it's dying.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Heart #Mind #Dying

  • You’re the world to me,” I whisper onto her lips. “I hope you never forget that.” “I’ll never forget,” she whispers back.. “But if I ever do, for whatever reason, I hope you’ll always find a way to remind me.” ...“Always.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #World #Way #Lips

  • Ultimately, it's my choice and only my choice.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Choices

  • I promise to love you forever in this life and wherever we go in the afterlife, because I know I can't go on in any life unless you're in it too.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Love You #Afterlife #Forever

  • Because this is our life. We met on the road; we grew to know and to love each other on the road. It's where we were meant to be for however long, and it's what we're going to do until it becomes clear that we're meant to do something else.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Long #Were Meant To Be #Mets

  • Our story is over, yes, but our journey isn't, because we'll always live on the edge until the day we die.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Journey #Stories

  • Promise me that if I ever get Alzheimer’s or dementia, and I don’t remember anyone that you’ll visit me every day and read to me like Noah read to Allie.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Promise #Remember

  • Well, I suppose he’s stuck with you forever then.” “Yes, and forever is a very long time.” He pauses and then says, “Well, for the record, something tells me he wouldn’t have it any other way.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Long #Forever #Records

  • Maybe you should get rid of me,” I whisper onto his lips. “Never,” he says, kissing me once softly. “You’re mine for as long as you breathe.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Kissing #Long #Lips

  • You’re sleeping with an assassin, running for your life every single day from men who want to kill you and you’re convinced you’re going to die of discomfort.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Running #Sleep #Men

  • I shattered that memory by going back there. Without realizing it until it was too late, I replaced that memory with the emptiness of that day.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Memories #Too Late #Emptiness

  • Depression is pain in its purest form.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Pain #Form

  • Pain hurts, but pain that's so powerful that you can't feel anymore, that's when you start to feel like you're going crazy.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Hurt #Pain #Powerful

  • A real fighter never cries, never lets the weight of any blow bring him down. Except that final blow, the inevitable one, but even then they always go out like men.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Real #Men #Blow

  • I don’t want to sleep alone,” she says gently. And I don’t force her to. Sarai falls fast asleep curled up next to me in my bed. Right where I want her.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Fall #Sleep #Bed

  • You made me feel real emotions. You unlocked me.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Real #Emotion #Made

  • There is a stark difference between fear and uncertainty, Sarai. You fear nothing but are uncertain of everything.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Differences #Uncertain #Fear Nothing

  • Victor Faust did much more than help me escape a life of abuse and servitude. He changed me. He changed the landscape of my dreams, the dreams I had every day about living ordinarily and free and on my own. He changed the colors on the palette from primary to rainbow—as dark as the colors of that rainbow may be.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Dream #Dark #Color

  • You're like a philosopher with tattoos.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Tattoo #Philosopher

  • all I want to do is pull her against me and hold her until we both die.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Want

  • I have to live and make my own choices, my own mistakes. You have to let me be me, even if i suck at it sometimes." - Adria
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Mistake #Choices #Sometimes

  • He never leaves my side. And I know he never will.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Sides

  • Coincidence is just the conformist term for fate.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Fate #Coincidence #Term

  • What you wear doesn't really matter much. All that matters is where you're going what you're doing while you're wearing it.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Matter

  • I think I've been afraid most of my life to be myself.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Thinking

  • I believe that no matter what happens, or where we go, or if there's an afterlife, that we'll always be connected. Not even death can make me forget you, or forget that I love you.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Believe #Love You #Afterlife

  • I have never lived the way I lived during my short time with you. For the first time in my life, I’ve felt whole, alive, free. You were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins. I think that if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one of them. I’ve known you for a short time, but I feel like I’ve known you forever
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Real #Thinking #Past

  • When we pull away, he rests his hand on my thigh pressed next to his and we ride like that for a long time; the only time he moves his hand is to take better control of a sharp curve or to adjust the music, but he always puts it right back. And I always want him to.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Moving #Curves #Hands

  • You were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, and the blood in my veins.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Blood #Missing #Soul

  • Parents have this twisted belief that anyone under the age of about twenty simply can’t know what love is, like the age to love is assessed in the same way the law assesses the legal age to drink. They think that the ‘emotional growth’ of a teenager’s mind is too underdeveloped to understand love, to know if it’s ‘real’ or not.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Love #Teenager #Real

  • Well, everybody needs help feeling alive again every once in a while.” “No,” she says seriously, and my gaze falls back on hers, “I didn’t say again, Andrew; for making me feel alive for the first time.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Fall #Feelings #Firsts

  • Truthfully, he lives right next to the Sexy Tree and I think that's the only thing that bothers me about this whole situation.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Sexy #Thinking #Tree

  • Laugh, I Nearly Died," Andrew answers. "You've probably never heard that one before.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Laughing #Answers #Andrew

  • And when someone grows up knowing so little of what real love feels like, whether from family, or friends, or the love of a companion, that person starts to believe that they weren’t meant to be loved, that good things will never happen to them. They start to believe that whenever something good does happen, it’s inevitable that something bad will come along to replace it.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Growing Up #Real #Believe

  • I believe there’s someone out there for everyone,” he {Isaac} says, “and when you meet that person, sometimes you know right away they are who you were meant to be with. And sometimes, years can go by before you let yourself believe that the feeling you’ve had about a person for so long, is actually love. And what a waste that is.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Believe #Years #Long

  • I tried to will them with my super mental powers so he’d put them around my waist, but apparently I had no super mental powers.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Mental Power

  • To love someone so deeply means also that it will hurt a thousand times more when he disappoints or leaves you
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Hurt #Mean #Disappoint

  • I think it was the one thing I didn’t like about him or about guys in general: when a girl says she doesn’t want to talk about it, the truth is that she usually does. I wanted him to pry it out of me. Of course, I would’ve pretended to be a little angry that he didn’t just leave me alone, but eventually I would’ve told him, when I was tired of pretending.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Girl #Tired #Thinking

  • Oh, this is going to be fun; he actually thinks he's teaching me something.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Fun #Teaching #Thinking

  • I could die in this bed with him right now, wrapped in his arms and I would never know that I had died.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Bed #Arms

  • I think when you fall in love, like true love, it’s love for life. All the rest is just experiences and delusions.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Falling In Love #Love Life #Thinking

  • It's the people y'gotta watch out for. You never know who y'might meet, or what Ol' Man Fate has in store for yah.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Fate #Men #People

  • A bus ride is like being in another world.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #World #Another World #Bus

  • I'm not sure what it is that I want, but I feel it deep in the pit of my stomach. It's there sitting dormant. I'll know it when I see it.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Sitting #Pits #Want

  • To lovers and dreamers and anyone who hasn’t truly experienced either.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Dreamer #Lovers

  • Never thought I’d intentionally sleep on a bathromm floor next to a toilet while sober, but I meant it when I said I would sleep anywhere with her.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Sleep #Toilets #Next

  • His face spreads into a warm smile. “As a matter of fact, no, I have never slept under the stars – are you gettin’ all romantic on me, Camryn Bennett?” He looks at me with a playful sideward stare.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Stars #Faces #Facts

  • I say that I'm not into you like that, Camryn, because..," he pauses, searching my face, looking at my lips for a moment as if deciding whether or not he should kiss them again, "...because you're not the girl I could only sleep with once.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Girl #Sleep #Kissing

  • My plant is probably dead." Camryn looks slightly surprised. "You have a plant?" I smile. "Yeah, her name's Georgia.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Names #Looks #Georgia

  • Live in the moment, where everything is just right, take your time and limit your bad memories and you'll get wherever it is you're going a lot faster and with less bumps in the way.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Memories #Live In The Moment #Way

  • It’s not only about sadness. In truth, sadness really has little to do with it. Depression is pain in its purest form and I would do anything to be able to feel an emotion again. Any emotion at all. Pain hurts, but pain that’s so powerful that you can’t feel anything anymore, that’s when you start to feel like you’re going crazy.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Hurt #Pain #Powerful

  • let yourself cry, OK? One of the worst feelings in the world is being unable to cry and eventually it…starts to make things darker.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Feelings #World #Cry

  • What compels any of us to do the things we do when deep down a part of us just wants to break free from it all?
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Want #Break

  • I don't know myself. I don't know what I want or how I feel or how I should feeland I don't think I ever really have.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Thinking #Want #Should

  • Two people unable to cry finally cry together and in the world ended today, we would be fulfilled.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Two #People #Together

  • The moment you see someone attractive, you can't help but make note of it. It's human nature.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Helping #Human Nature #Moments

  • Everybody starts out as strangers.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Stranger

  • Why does everybody have to be with somebody? It’s a stupid delusion and a really pathetic way of thinking.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Stupid #Thinking #Doe

  • The moment you tell someone else is the moment you become a whiner and the world’s smallest violin starts to play. The truth is, we all have problems; we all go through hardships and pain, and my pain is paradise compared to a lot of people’s and I really have no right to whine at all.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Pain #Play #People

  • It’s my future and my life and I can’t make myself live the way someone else wants me to.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Want #Way #My Future

  • She sticks her tongue out at me and crosses her eyes. Not sure why that made me want to do her in the backseat, but to each his own, I guess.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Eye #Sticks #Want

  • I run behind her, letting her stay a few steps ahead of me so if she happens to fall I’ll be there to laugh at her first and then help her up afterwards.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Running #Fall #Laughing

  • Are you in love with me, Camryn Bennett?” … “Not yet,” I say with a smile in my voice, “but I’m getting there.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Voice

  • Best friends, no matter what they do or how much they hurt you, it only hurts as much as it does because they are your best friend. And none of us are perfect. Mistakes were made for best friends to forgive; it’s what makes being a best friend official.
    -- J.A. Redmerski

    #Hurt #Mistake #Perfect